Welcoming Discipline And Grounding My Guru

Can I just be real with you for a minute?

I am notoriously flaky and non-committal. I have been this way my entire life. I chalk it up to an overwhelming character flaw that has plagued my very existence.

Yet the older I get, the more I am driven to be something more. This overwhelming desire to complete something, to finish something, to see something through to the end has become an incessant nagging that refuses to go away.

And then one day, I found something that I knew would would fix all of my problems.

I swore to myself that

would be different.

Yoga would change my life. Yoga would bring me inner peace, balance and oneness. I would become a Yoga Guru, who would perform amazingly difficult poses with ease and grace. I would study Yoga, practice Yoga and fully embody all things Yoga.

Don’t get me wrong, I always start every endeavor with the best intentions. Completely unrealistic and overly exaggerated expectations are my forte.

But then, life happens.

Life can be busy, stressful and frustrating. It can leave even the most ambitiously inclined person up a creek, without a paddle. Before I knew it, I got sucked in to the current of my usual habits, daily routines and busy work schedule. My dream of being a Yoga Guru took a back seat to, well, life.

As a Gemini,

is my element.

My head is quite literally in the clouds and my heart is never far behind.  I flow effortlessly from one thing to the next and I welcome change with pure, childlike excitement.

It is no wonder my life has become a series of un-finished projects and good intentions left floating in the wind.

There is one element that I just cannot seem to wrap my head around…

 Earth, is needed to maintain grounding, stability, growth and nourishment. Balance can never be achieved without these key ingredients. I had to find a way to incorporate these aspects into my life.

Yoga, quite literally, forced me to take time out of my extremely Air influenced existence, to plant my feet firmly on the ground.

Through Yoga I created

I became grounded and rooted within the Earth element.  I began planting seeds of knowledge, wisdom and desire. I would return, each day, to nourish and perfect everything I’ve planted.  As these seeds of intent grew, I became more firmly rooted in my perspective of self. I found my place in this amazing existence. I became one with all that is. I became whole.

This is it.  This is my reminder.  My mantra that encompasses all that I truly desire.

When I am feeling lost, frustrated and overwhelmed, I can find my purpose and motivation here.

It is so easy to let life get in the way of our journey.

I realized that I could no longer continue to do the same thing and expect different results. Sometimes we need to get out of our own way. We must welcome the discipline we know we so desperately need and focus on grounding our Inner Guru.

Yoga did not change me. The practice and discipline that Yoga provides, allowed me to change myself.